Family gatherings are alway warm ^^

Some people might agree and some might not...
but family gatherings alway makes me feel so warm and loved.

To some, family gatherings might be a drag, because it's boring.
to others, it might just be like any other occasion where you brag about your perfect life and kids you have.
but to me, family gatherings makes me feel blessed and helps me realize that no matter what happens, there will always be a room full of people who will lend a hand.

If you minus the overwhelming numbers of people,
and the very westernized culture for a chinese family,
my family is just like any other ordinary family,
but we all share a very strong bond that is unbreakable.
no matter how far or how busy everyone gets,
we will always squeeze out time for family gatherings.
it is our family's culture,
and it is a tradition that we will always uphold,
for as long as the Yeow family lives.....

Wasting time doing nothing T_T

Currently at my hometown...
having another test on tuesday,
yet i'm just slacking here.
tried to study,
but it was all in vain.
ended up blogging and surfing the net.
haizz.....

anywaz am currently listening to Far East Movement's Rocketeer.
am addicted to them lately~~
they will seriously be the next big asian group in the states ^^

hmm....i'm really lazy at updating my blog~~ wish i could get a sony bloggie T_T

Okie...so my mid-term kinda ended yesterday,
although i still have 2 more subjects coming up but i still have time to study.
last 3 days was the busiest days of my uni life.
i had different exams each day, 2 assignments and lack of sleep.
and not to mention that i haven't even started my revision yet.
but thanks to my dear course mates(who are so understanding),
that i manage to get everything done.
anyway, i was glad it was over. *i am never going to repeat that again*

This week i'm having quite a long weekend because of Deepavali holis.
i am so glad to be home with my family ^^
and not to mention that 1 of my bestie is coming back~~
we're watching Takers this sat. *tickets was extremely expensive T_T*
though i was hoping to spend time with all my besties,
but not all of them was available.
really miss those times in high school.
crazy yet fun at the same time.
hopefully, we can get together and have an extraordinary reunion.

exams =.=" exams o.0 Exams!!!!!

Ever thought of burning ur skool/campus down?
thought of tripping ur teacher/lecture so they won't make it to class?
man....ppl say working is hard...
so is skool =.=

there's alwaz not enough time to breath before examinations come
crashing on ur worn shoulders....
is it that hard to reduce examinations a bit....
and by a bit i really mean a BIT!!!
anywaz, tat was me being moody becuz i'm having midterms soon.
wait....by soon i mean tomorrow *sighs*
and i haven't even started my revision yet.
and just when u think things can't get anymore worse,
i've got a presentation on wed which i juz found out this afternoon....seriously T_T
and another 1 coming right up next week...
hu....i really nid a break *wishful thinking~~~~*

Gatherings are always fun ^^

meet my besties in kl yesterday~~
it was a rare occasion where all of us can actually make it.
though it was short, i still had fun ^^

these are the few pics we took.

at midvalley's korean restaurant~~




took these when we were waiting for ncy.




on the way back, we took the ktm to kl central.

Love is blind, but friendship closes it's eyes...

Have you ever wonder what friendship really means?
where a single individual can sacrifice everything for another individual.
be it money, someone you like, trust and sometimes even their own life.
my version of friendship is of course not as extraordinary as some people,
but still...it means sooo much to me....

these are a few everlasting friendship that i have made throughout this 18 years.


















I knew that looking back at tears would make me laugh.....
but i never knew that looking back at laughs would cause tears.
i feel so thankful that i have come to know all of you,
this friendship means a lot to me,
and i hope it means a lot to you too....

"A true friend is a single soul dwelling in two bodies" quoted from Aristotle.

Another rainy day ^^

i'm sure all of you are aware that rain is the easiest thing found lately.
it's been raining non-stop for like a week now.
and i think some are already sick of it.
but surprisingly, i love it when it rains in kampar.

Although it might be really inconvenient,
still....i love the sound of the rain.
raining is really something special huh....
when there is too much people will complain,
and yet when there is none or it rarely happens,
people do the strangest thing just to beg for it *the rain dance =.="*

Rain is just like the closest people around us.
sometimes you are sick of someone because he/she noses into your business or nags at you too often.
but when you lose them, it will never be the same again.
just like a rainless desert....
you crave and beg, yet it will never come back again...

Back for another update again ^^

lol. i know i've been leaving my blog to die lately,
but here i am again XD
*waves* hi blog!!! miss you sooo much <3

anywaz, my holis are already over,
and this is the start of my second sem in utar.
orh....how time flies~~~
u may be shock to hear this,
but i was actually glad that sem break ended so soon.
i was literally dying of boredom at home.
and i miss my girls sooooo much *you know who you are~~*

sadly, i failed my maths.
and i thought i could finally be free of its grabs,
i was soooo wrong.
it was decided that i have to retake this freaking subject.
and now i've got 6 subjects for my second sem.
still, it's a good thing that i don't have to increase my semesters.
so to say, i'm really thankful.

mid-autumn festival was just a few days ago.
i had fun with my girls~~
we actually managed to play candles and lantern
despite the awful weather.

these are a few pictures we took.






We all had dinner together that night.
it was a home-cooked meal~~
i helped out with the cooking too XD

Wah!!! I want my holis to come sooner~~

ARGH!!!!
one week of examination is killing me already =.="
a single subject a day,
why can't we just get it over with!!!!

haizz....am also getting distracted because
exam is taking quite a long time. ><
anyway, am going to Bangkok for this coming holis~~
am looking forward to it XD
still i wish to go to penang too.
miss my ns friends sooooo much!!!!

Am feeling inspired at 12am in the morning XD

Today was utar's student timetable biding day.
Utar really should get a new system that doesn't make us
students wanna slap our lappie or comps very 10 seconds =.="
after 2 and half hours of biding,
i got a pretty crappy timetable.
orh well, what more can i say.....

Anywayz, finals is in a week's time,
and still i haven started my revision yet.
haizzz.....
have gotta start soon, or else i'll be facing major "parent problem".

Been browsing through old pictures lately,
seeing those pictures we took during secondary,
it really brings back a lot of memories.

Time really flies,
and if you just let it slip away without trying to grabs it,
all you have left are just regrettable thoughts.

Back again~~!!!

Back again after a 1 month hiatus.
I was actually lazy to update my blog...
but thanks to my best friend, here i am again ^^
anyway a lot has happened in this 2 months.
I'm having my finals next week XD
and yet here i am, still on the web~~

Hmm...i don't really know where to begin =.="
Okie, so my first sem of my college life is almost over.
i can't say that i'm very happy, cuz i dun feel like leaving kampar.
Kampar has actually turn out quite fine.
It's still as 'dead' as ever, but i'm enjoying the life here.

I dun feel like transferring to pj.
the campus there isn't as nice as this one here.
and i don't want to leave my newly made friends and start over again.
one of the main reasons is becuz ipoh is so much nearer.

Haizz, hopefully everything will workout in the end.
so i will stop here for today~~
here i come pps XD

Praise the Lord!!

After being a utar student for more than a month,
you start to realize that people in utar rarely speaks english.
that's because utar is a chinese populated university.
you can hear people speaking chinese, cantonese, hokkien all around
but rarely english.
i was dying to speak english but to who?
so i was so happy went i was invited to utar's christian fellowship
by my friend grace. ^^

It was my first time
going to a church in kampar.
i really missed going to church.
i was on a hiatus for about 9 months
cuz i was kinda distracted.
and now i'm back to church again.

I've finally found the utar english speaking community. XD
it was so good to have people speaking to me in english instead of chinese!!!!
finally, my deteriorating english will have it's chance to improve again.
and thanks to the Lord for his blessing!
if i did not go to church,
i would not have found *them* (the english speakers ><)
cheers!!!

Some things are better kept untold.

It's always good to share what you feel.
it's also a good thing that there are people who cares to listen.
but it doesn't mean you can share everything...

There's a saying "sharing is caring"
but is it really true?

I'm sure there are people out there
that are having the same thoughts as me.
sometimes saying the wrong thing
can end up in a big mess...

There are also times that,
you really hope to voice it out.
but you just can't...
it isn't the right thing to do.
and courage is also a problem.

It's better to just keep it
buried deep inside.
until it slowly fades away....

Sometimes you just have to take the first step.

Courage is always the problem people face.
it doesn't matter whether you are a girl or a guy.
when you would just sight and think "if i was a little braver...
would it make a difference..."

Taking the first step isn't easy.
but it would have made a difference if you would just try...
how can you think that it would fail
if you wouldn't even give it a chance.

Sometimes...
you just need...
a leap of faith....

Separation doesn't mean it's the end, it's just the start of a new beginning.

"Real Friend"...
that's a term many people would give a thought about.
a good friend is like a valuable gift.
it is hard to get,
but if you are in possession of it...
you will have it for life.

does everyone have a trust-able friend they can call as a real friend?
some might say yes...
and some might say no...
as for me...
i'm very blessed to have friends that are reliable.

Every meeting always ends with a separation.
for me and my friends...
it's finally the time for us to part ways.
being apart may be hard to cope with at first,
but it's a process of life we have to go through.

Besides, good friends will not drift apart that easily.
no matter where we are
or what are we're doing.
we will always remember each other
and the times we've been through.
looking forward without forgetting the past...
that's what really matters...

Feeling hyper cuz I'm back in IPOH!!!!

Back in my dear hometown again~~
feels so happy ^^
although i'm just studying in kampar,
i still feel homesick.
have no idea how am i gonna survive after transferring to the pj branch.

Anyway, yesterday was a fun night.
it was kinda a 5S1 reunion dinner, with just a quarter of our classmates. XD
still it was nice seeing everyone together.
really hope to have a full class reunion dinner though.
orh well...got to be grateful with what you get.

URGH...
am darn hungry now,
so i'll just stop here.

Can anyone save me from this hell hole?

Seriously, utar was nothing but hell to me lately.
I honestly do not know whether it's my problem
or utar's just not on good terms with me.

After studying in utar and moving to kampar for almost a month.
i thought i would finally manage to adapt to the environment there,
but it turns out differently...way different from what i expected.
not only do i feel sick just thinking of going to school,
i'm also suffering from insomnia,
which is way serious considering the fact that i can sleep anywhere, any time.
and not to mention transportation is so darn inconvenient.
i actually had to walk from campus to my hostel several times.
it took me a freaking hour for every trip!!!
ARGH!!!!

I really have to solve my issues regarding utar.
how can i like something when i cannot even think of it without feeling sick =.="
and i'm having a test next week...
haizz...
should have taken the option of studying f6,
at least i would not be suffering from insomnia...

It's a relief, that I have finally move on...

Shockingly as it is,
i have finally decided to move on.
sometimes...
you just need that bit of courage to just stand up and walk away
finally, i have found my bit of courage.

Looking back at how foolish i was,
to waste my time on something that i knew i would never have.
but still...
it was worth it.
although it was never mine to begin with.
i learnt to let go, move on and still smile...

It wasn't easy...
but i succeeded ^^

Just the sight of dim sum is enough to scare me X_X

Today was my first day working as a waitress.
and for those who knows me, i'm a person with a weird hygienic obsession
so it was not easy at all for me being a waitress...

I worked at a dim sum restaurant in ipoh.
and boy....was i stressed out.
imagine no one else cleaning the tables except you,
and the customers are coming in like little ants spotting something sweet.
it's was darn hectic.
i didn't even have chance to drink a drop of water from 7 in the morning
to 12.30pm =.="
was i glad, when it's time to go home.

Working as a waitress,
really isn't a pleasant job....at all.
it makes me realize not to be so hard on them
when we have to wait for our table or the food.
this working experience really made me realize
the real value of money.
and the hard earn appreciation when it's a job well done.

Although it was only a day, still I appreciate it alot!!!

Went back to ipoh again on tuesday ><
thanks to my roomate ng cheng yee.
her sister came to fetch us at 10pm.
was shocked when she actually reached our house after 20 minutes o.0
we were actually out hanging out with friends.
imagine the speed we had to cycled when her sis said she is at our hostel =.="

Anyway got to spend a day with my family.
reached home at 11.30pm
went out for supper with my family.
had a very enjoyable supper with them,
because it's been a week since i talked to my sisters.
and 2 weeks since i talked to my parents.

I used to hate family gatherings.
but after coming to kampar to study,
i really really miss them.
miss my sister's sarcastic jokes,
my mum's nagging,
my dad's stern stares. LOL
and now i realised no matter how much we argued,
i really really love them a lot.


supper in ipoh's so-called 'dessert street' XD

Don't see people as a field, when you're only a weed to them...

Sometimes when you treasure someone
doesn't mean that the person treasures you as well.
and all you get is heart-ache and rejection...

Putting someone first before yourself is never a good thing,
unless that someone is a family member.
because family members will never abandon you
no matter what happens.

You may think that when you give all your heart out in a friendship or a relationship
you will receive equally as much...
but life is always unfair, and there is nothing like equality.

That is why it's best to not get overly involve.
but sometimes the more you try to build a wall...
the harder it gets to defend people from breaking it.
and when the wall of defence is broken down...
there is no other way to save yourself...

Reunion with my ex-classmates ^^

Went out today for lunch with my ex-classmates.
it was really fun ^^
woke up early this morning
although i stayed up late last night.
can't really sleep well this few days.
even at home....

Poh(1 of my besties) came to fetch me today.
wasn't ready at all when she said she was on the way,
had to rush around so that i will be ready when she arrived XD
after fetching me, we went to fetch the rest of our friends.
we reached our destination which is greentown at 3pm.
so we kinda had a late lunch ><


this gathering was all because of ching li who came back from kedah for holis~


the restaurant was quite a nice place
but i forgot what's it called =.="


gonna miss ching li so much~~
she's going to china next year T_T


my personal favourite~~
this was the last picture we took before leaving ^^

Yay!!! back in ipoh again, i just love weekends ^^

I'm back for the weekend again.
feels grateful that it's gonna be a saturday tomorrow.
waking up at 6.30am for 2 days is really killing me.
to think that college life would be less tiring than f6...
how wrong was i....
i still have to wake up at the crack of dawn T_T

College life is getting better lately.
although work load is getting more and more
i still enjoy this week better than i did last week.
hopefully it will keep getting better~~
but i still wish that i could drive,
instead of cycling...
fell down again on thursday ><
i'm really not on good terms with my bic,
can't seem to get it to cooperate with me =.="

Got to eat banana split on thursday.
although i fell down
but with my craving fulfilled
can't help but be happy ^^

Am dying to watch The A Team!!!
but i have to wait for my dear bffs to return from kl
ARGH...
orh well...hoping next saturday will be here in a blink of an eye XD
woot~~

When there is nothing around you, you start to appreciate what was once there.

I'm trying my best not to be a spoiled brat and keep whining about things.
but you really can't help it
especially when you're sick!!

This week was chaotic ><
okie...so maybe it's not the whole week yet...
anyway...
i came back to kampar on monday
and my sickness got worse after the first day of school.
was just having a sore-throat and coughing.
now i ended up having fever and flu.
i even used up my whole supply of tissue T_T
Besides being sick, i've got several new bruises on my elbow and knee,
thanks to cycling =.="
really....this week can't get anymore worse.

Because of these few days
i start to realize just how much i really miss my family and friends.
when you're sick
there's always a warm bowl of soup waiting for you beside your bed.
and when you're falling down while walking or cycling
there's always a hand to catch you.

Just how much do you miss them?
you wouldn't even start to wonder
unless you're in a place far away from home.

Home is where the heart is...
now i finally understand.

Sometimes forgetting is a blessing.

People always say "forgetting is such an irresponsible thing to do, and if you really treasure your memories, you wouldn't forget them so easily."

but i say "forgetting is a gift...sometimes forgetting is so much harder than remembering...it pains you when you remember, yet you cannot let it go. you need so much courage and will power to just forget..."

There are always so many troubles circling around us
no matter how hard you try, you just can't overcome it.
and sometimes the only way...
is to just forget.

By forgetting,
it doesn't mean you're doing something irresponsible.
it's just another way to solve the problem and an easier way out.
but it's really not easy...
forgetting....
if i could have a wish right now....
then i would like to forget...

Feels like writing all of a sudden...

Just came back from kampar.
am dead tired right now.
i actually cycled to campus from my hostel this morning.
it was a very strenuous exercise ><

Still not use to the lifestyle in kampar.
with no transport and internet excess...
if it was me a week ago, i would have thought that i'll be dead by now.
but seeing that i'm still updating my blog,
i think i'm pretty much still breathing.

Am losing my appetite lately.
maybe it's because of the excessive exercises.
as long as i'm not aneroxic, i'll be fine.
really miss being at home.
i'm actually missing my mom's cooking
and being taken cared of by my parents.
can't help but feel homesick after a week.

Utar has a really large library
but sadly i haven't had the chance to check it out yet.
but seriously, campus is really too big...
i feel like my legs are gonna give way,
juz by walking from my lecture hall to the cafeteria.
and it's freezing in the lecture halls.
i have to wear a jacket and still face the risk of freezing to death =.="
but my hostel is the exact opposite.
with 2 fans on, you still manage to sweat.
orh well...
this is life.

I miss my friends~~

After starting college for 2 days,
i can't help but miss my best friends. (you know who you are XP)
college life is really similar to school life.
except when u leave class in the middle of a lecture there's no one to stop you.
and you are on your own, no one to guide you, no one to rely on.
what a cruel life...

When i'm in my lecture classes.
it really brings back school life memories.
close friends sitting all around you.
chit-chatting away even thought the teacher is teaching.
siting together at a table laughing and talking during recess.
moving around together, even to the toilets XD
and not to mention giving teacher headaches because of unfinished homeworks, skipping classes and school together ^^

orh well...
we all have to grow up someday....
but still....
it would be so much better if they were actually here with me.
miss you girls so much~~

College life is unexpectedly boring....

First and second day of my college life was boring and downright tiring...

The first day i was late for my very first lecture.

it started at 8am in the morning....gosh...

woke up at 6.30am and got ready for school.

try to catch the bus but ended up missing 3 buses because there were too many people.

came back at 4pm.

was so darn exhausted i can't even lift my finger =.="

slept at 10pm so that i can wake up for tomorrow's class.

After spending 2 days in utar.

I absolutely hate it.

lecture was so so and i din make a single friend from class.

and not to mention my timetable sucks ><

but still...

i got to come back to ipoh cuz wednesday is kinda my off day.

with only a tutorial class at 4pm.

and this week was a free week because tutorial classes have not started yet.

so i'm updating my blog from my dear hometown ipoh XD

seriously, after being to a town like kampar.

you really start to appreciate ipoh.

and maxis phone line there sucks.

ARGH....you can't even call or receive texts at night.

p.s. am wishing i did not enroll into utar. T_T

Is it luck or a curse....

I know i shouldn't feel this way

but it's just too suffocating keeping it inside and not letting it out.

ever wonder why is your life so unfair sometimes?

well....i do...

it's not that i'm not grateful, but it's just so frustrating sometimes

when the thing you want the most is within your reach yet you just can't seem to grabs it.

After hearing this confession

people tend to say "hey, why don't you just go up and grab it, instead of sulking here like a spoil brat."

hello....it's not like i don't want too, i just can't!!!!

circumstances wouldn't allow me to do that.

so all i can do, is just tell you how frustrated and sad i feel....

And forgetting is also not an option.

you can't just forget things that made you so worked up and frustrated about.

it's not easy to forget to begin with....

if it was that easy, i wouldn't be so helpless now, would i?

So you see

life is just so unfair

and still you have to bare with it.

imagine this world without morality, pride, conscience or guilt.

then we would not hesitate to do whatever it takes

to achieve our goal or get whatever we want.

but still....i prefer life like this...

although it might be good, if we could just ignore all 'these' once in a while....

My hostel is really....bleh

Imagine 2 weeks without internet excess.

Honestly, if you're some1 who is preparing to enter college, please be really careful when you're choosing your place to stay.

or else you'll end up like me....

living in a 'dead town' without an internet excess.

it's a nightmare >< !!!

when i came down to look for houses,

i came across these hostels near utar

and i was like...this place is nice...

with security check, laundry services for each units, internet excess and most importantly house keeping!!!

i was so happy to know that i will be living an easy life

when college starts...

boy....how wrong was i....

the first day i moved in, it wasn't so bad...

untill i found out that internet excess will be given two weeks later.

without internet excess it's like...without food in a desert!

and with nothing to do, i was bound to crack after a day or two.

finally my roommate's cousin came down to kampar to get his test results

my lovely roommate took his hostel keys from him

so i ended up using his internet excess in his room XD

cheers to my wonderful roommate!!! ^^

paying 220 bucks for a room without internet excess is....

i really should ask for a rebate =.="

First day in Kampar.

Honestly today was the worst day of my life.

I have never felt this bored in my whole life =.="

If you think Ipoh is a dead town, you really should see Kampar.

Seriously the word "dead" really can't describe this "lovely" town....

i'm not exaggerating at all.

spending a year here will really be a challenge which i have to overcome~~

alas it would be really interesting if i can find something good to entertain myself XD

anywaz i'm still kinda excited because finally i'm going to college.

after 3 months of doing-nothing will finally come to an end.

for that i cheer ^^

woot woot~~

p.s. I'm still trying to get the hang of writing a blog ><

I finally gave myself a chance on blogging.

It was hard to make me start this.

but alas here i am, starting my first ever blog.

I love to read people's blog

it doesn't really matter whether do i know that person or not.

It's just seem so interesting sometimes, reading about other people's lives.

So now it's my turn to finally share a piece of my life XD

p.s. It really took me a lot of *courage* to actually start a blog~~