Can anyone save me from this hell hole?

Seriously, utar was nothing but hell to me lately.
I honestly do not know whether it's my problem
or utar's just not on good terms with me.

After studying in utar and moving to kampar for almost a month.
i thought i would finally manage to adapt to the environment there,
but it turns out differently...way different from what i expected.
not only do i feel sick just thinking of going to school,
i'm also suffering from insomnia,
which is way serious considering the fact that i can sleep anywhere, any time.
and not to mention transportation is so darn inconvenient.
i actually had to walk from campus to my hostel several times.
it took me a freaking hour for every trip!!!
ARGH!!!!

I really have to solve my issues regarding utar.
how can i like something when i cannot even think of it without feeling sick =.="
and i'm having a test next week...
haizz...
should have taken the option of studying f6,
at least i would not be suffering from insomnia...

It's a relief, that I have finally move on...

Shockingly as it is,
i have finally decided to move on.
sometimes...
you just need that bit of courage to just stand up and walk away
finally, i have found my bit of courage.

Looking back at how foolish i was,
to waste my time on something that i knew i would never have.
but still...
it was worth it.
although it was never mine to begin with.
i learnt to let go, move on and still smile...

It wasn't easy...
but i succeeded ^^

Just the sight of dim sum is enough to scare me X_X

Today was my first day working as a waitress.
and for those who knows me, i'm a person with a weird hygienic obsession
so it was not easy at all for me being a waitress...

I worked at a dim sum restaurant in ipoh.
and boy....was i stressed out.
imagine no one else cleaning the tables except you,
and the customers are coming in like little ants spotting something sweet.
it's was darn hectic.
i didn't even have chance to drink a drop of water from 7 in the morning
to 12.30pm =.="
was i glad, when it's time to go home.

Working as a waitress,
really isn't a pleasant job....at all.
it makes me realize not to be so hard on them
when we have to wait for our table or the food.
this working experience really made me realize
the real value of money.
and the hard earn appreciation when it's a job well done.

Although it was only a day, still I appreciate it alot!!!

Went back to ipoh again on tuesday ><
thanks to my roomate ng cheng yee.
her sister came to fetch us at 10pm.
was shocked when she actually reached our house after 20 minutes o.0
we were actually out hanging out with friends.
imagine the speed we had to cycled when her sis said she is at our hostel =.="

Anyway got to spend a day with my family.
reached home at 11.30pm
went out for supper with my family.
had a very enjoyable supper with them,
because it's been a week since i talked to my sisters.
and 2 weeks since i talked to my parents.

I used to hate family gatherings.
but after coming to kampar to study,
i really really miss them.
miss my sister's sarcastic jokes,
my mum's nagging,
my dad's stern stares. LOL
and now i realised no matter how much we argued,
i really really love them a lot.


supper in ipoh's so-called 'dessert street' XD

Don't see people as a field, when you're only a weed to them...

Sometimes when you treasure someone
doesn't mean that the person treasures you as well.
and all you get is heart-ache and rejection...

Putting someone first before yourself is never a good thing,
unless that someone is a family member.
because family members will never abandon you
no matter what happens.

You may think that when you give all your heart out in a friendship or a relationship
you will receive equally as much...
but life is always unfair, and there is nothing like equality.

That is why it's best to not get overly involve.
but sometimes the more you try to build a wall...
the harder it gets to defend people from breaking it.
and when the wall of defence is broken down...
there is no other way to save yourself...

Reunion with my ex-classmates ^^

Went out today for lunch with my ex-classmates.
it was really fun ^^
woke up early this morning
although i stayed up late last night.
can't really sleep well this few days.
even at home....

Poh(1 of my besties) came to fetch me today.
wasn't ready at all when she said she was on the way,
had to rush around so that i will be ready when she arrived XD
after fetching me, we went to fetch the rest of our friends.
we reached our destination which is greentown at 3pm.
so we kinda had a late lunch ><


this gathering was all because of ching li who came back from kedah for holis~


the restaurant was quite a nice place
but i forgot what's it called =.="


gonna miss ching li so much~~
she's going to china next year T_T


my personal favourite~~
this was the last picture we took before leaving ^^

Yay!!! back in ipoh again, i just love weekends ^^

I'm back for the weekend again.
feels grateful that it's gonna be a saturday tomorrow.
waking up at 6.30am for 2 days is really killing me.
to think that college life would be less tiring than f6...
how wrong was i....
i still have to wake up at the crack of dawn T_T

College life is getting better lately.
although work load is getting more and more
i still enjoy this week better than i did last week.
hopefully it will keep getting better~~
but i still wish that i could drive,
instead of cycling...
fell down again on thursday ><
i'm really not on good terms with my bic,
can't seem to get it to cooperate with me =.="

Got to eat banana split on thursday.
although i fell down
but with my craving fulfilled
can't help but be happy ^^

Am dying to watch The A Team!!!
but i have to wait for my dear bffs to return from kl
ARGH...
orh well...hoping next saturday will be here in a blink of an eye XD
woot~~

When there is nothing around you, you start to appreciate what was once there.

I'm trying my best not to be a spoiled brat and keep whining about things.
but you really can't help it
especially when you're sick!!

This week was chaotic ><
okie...so maybe it's not the whole week yet...
anyway...
i came back to kampar on monday
and my sickness got worse after the first day of school.
was just having a sore-throat and coughing.
now i ended up having fever and flu.
i even used up my whole supply of tissue T_T
Besides being sick, i've got several new bruises on my elbow and knee,
thanks to cycling =.="
really....this week can't get anymore worse.

Because of these few days
i start to realize just how much i really miss my family and friends.
when you're sick
there's always a warm bowl of soup waiting for you beside your bed.
and when you're falling down while walking or cycling
there's always a hand to catch you.

Just how much do you miss them?
you wouldn't even start to wonder
unless you're in a place far away from home.

Home is where the heart is...
now i finally understand.

Sometimes forgetting is a blessing.

People always say "forgetting is such an irresponsible thing to do, and if you really treasure your memories, you wouldn't forget them so easily."

but i say "forgetting is a gift...sometimes forgetting is so much harder than remembering...it pains you when you remember, yet you cannot let it go. you need so much courage and will power to just forget..."

There are always so many troubles circling around us
no matter how hard you try, you just can't overcome it.
and sometimes the only way...
is to just forget.

By forgetting,
it doesn't mean you're doing something irresponsible.
it's just another way to solve the problem and an easier way out.
but it's really not easy...
forgetting....
if i could have a wish right now....
then i would like to forget...

Feels like writing all of a sudden...

Just came back from kampar.
am dead tired right now.
i actually cycled to campus from my hostel this morning.
it was a very strenuous exercise ><

Still not use to the lifestyle in kampar.
with no transport and internet excess...
if it was me a week ago, i would have thought that i'll be dead by now.
but seeing that i'm still updating my blog,
i think i'm pretty much still breathing.

Am losing my appetite lately.
maybe it's because of the excessive exercises.
as long as i'm not aneroxic, i'll be fine.
really miss being at home.
i'm actually missing my mom's cooking
and being taken cared of by my parents.
can't help but feel homesick after a week.

Utar has a really large library
but sadly i haven't had the chance to check it out yet.
but seriously, campus is really too big...
i feel like my legs are gonna give way,
juz by walking from my lecture hall to the cafeteria.
and it's freezing in the lecture halls.
i have to wear a jacket and still face the risk of freezing to death =.="
but my hostel is the exact opposite.
with 2 fans on, you still manage to sweat.
orh well...
this is life.

I miss my friends~~

After starting college for 2 days,
i can't help but miss my best friends. (you know who you are XP)
college life is really similar to school life.
except when u leave class in the middle of a lecture there's no one to stop you.
and you are on your own, no one to guide you, no one to rely on.
what a cruel life...

When i'm in my lecture classes.
it really brings back school life memories.
close friends sitting all around you.
chit-chatting away even thought the teacher is teaching.
siting together at a table laughing and talking during recess.
moving around together, even to the toilets XD
and not to mention giving teacher headaches because of unfinished homeworks, skipping classes and school together ^^

orh well...
we all have to grow up someday....
but still....
it would be so much better if they were actually here with me.
miss you girls so much~~

College life is unexpectedly boring....

First and second day of my college life was boring and downright tiring...

The first day i was late for my very first lecture.

it started at 8am in the morning....gosh...

woke up at 6.30am and got ready for school.

try to catch the bus but ended up missing 3 buses because there were too many people.

came back at 4pm.

was so darn exhausted i can't even lift my finger =.="

slept at 10pm so that i can wake up for tomorrow's class.

After spending 2 days in utar.

I absolutely hate it.

lecture was so so and i din make a single friend from class.

and not to mention my timetable sucks ><

but still...

i got to come back to ipoh cuz wednesday is kinda my off day.

with only a tutorial class at 4pm.

and this week was a free week because tutorial classes have not started yet.

so i'm updating my blog from my dear hometown ipoh XD

seriously, after being to a town like kampar.

you really start to appreciate ipoh.

and maxis phone line there sucks.

ARGH....you can't even call or receive texts at night.

p.s. am wishing i did not enroll into utar. T_T